Moving out and moving on.
Quarantine couldnt have come at a worse time in my personal life.
In a different phase of our relationship we would have been excited to spend more time in it.
But the stakes were so different than they ever had been.
What’s worse is I regrettably kept my concerns all to myself.
All around me I saw isolation making relationships stronger.
Star Donaldson/Design by Cristina Cianci
People were getting married over Zoom and baking together.
The limbo we were all facing in life was directly mirroring the limbo in my house.
June arrived, marking three full months in quarantine, and we finally had enough of walking on eggshells.
Star Donaldson/Design by Cristina Cianci
We agreed it was time to split.
Though it was the final step, it really felt like the first.
I went to bed that night in disbelief.
Star Donaldson/Design by Cristina Cianci
I had never faced so much uncertainty in my life and really had no idea how to handle it.
I became hyper-aware of everything, from work, to my apartment, to myself.
I over-analyzed every detail.
It felt like if I let one thing slip, I would totally fall apart.
Skepticism was my best friend.
Which, when looking for a place in Brooklyn, is helpful.
But even when I found my perfect apartment, I couldnt help but question everything.
I would break down crying because I felt I could no longer trust anyone.
I retreated further into myself, which made things even worse.
Finding a new place wrecked me with nervousness.
Even though this meant I could finally quiet that section of my worried brain, somehow my anxieties heightened.
I started packing up my life, and we began the dividing of the things.
It was like physically ripping apart the life that we had built together.
It was 1 p.m. and there was nothing left to do.
Nothing left to worry or stress over except for to just live through it.
And this hit mehard.
To be honest, it still hits me almost everyday and my emotions are still all over the place.
It’s something I am extremely grateful for even in my darkest moments.
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